the LAST day

i'm very HAPPIE as u always said u cant come out with me... but in the end, u always end up coming out... it's d last day and i hope u could come to the bbq @ my aunt's hse... and u kept saying u could not... and i kept pushing u to come to the end, FORCING U TO COME... am i being too selfish or what??? i dont really knoe if i've done the RIGHT thing FORCING u to come...

well, in d end u showed up and i'm VERY VERY HAPPIE... didnt expect ut o come... dont even noe if this'll get u into trouble with yr dad... really feel unsafe for u... i dont really want u to get HURT... i hope i could stand up for u... really really wanna protect u like a human shield...

i'm thinking if u're coming to the AIRPORT tmr, u're gonna cry, and if i see it, probably i'll END up crying too... but i noe i wont cry so easilly... i dont wanna see u cry too... i want u to LIVE happie while i'm not by yr side... i will LIVE very happie w/o u by my side... & dont worry i wont find another "LYNN" to replace u back in nz... and i hope ther's no other "ME" here... MAYB i'm jst too worried... i'm sure i shudnt be so "duo xin"... cause i noe u wont find another "ME" as i BLIF in u...

really dont wanna let go of my hands, but I noe I SHUD,
dont wanna let U out of the cage, but I noe I MUST,
wanna stay with U, but I noe I CANT,
WHAT SHUD I DO??? I JUST KNOE THAT I SHUDNT BE SO SELFISH if i really cared bout u...

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