after a HOT SHOWER

getting ready for uni... as i'm having a test today, wont be attending the lectures for maths... while i was bathing, i thought, if i hate u for what u've done, it hurts me even more than anything... not talking to u, makes me even more uncomfortable... dont mean to hurt myself, but, i just wanted to... not that hurting myself to make u feel bad... but i just cant control it now... i dont need yr love to surpress it... it's the love of me to u that surpressed it... so, since u made the choice, i respect u for it... but still, i'll love u more thn anything in this whole wide world... for now, those memories, remain kept in a box in my heart, until the day the u-turn comes, it'll the day i reopen that box... i reli could wait for it... i dont mind... but for now, it's gonna be the real "ME"...

i always thought, chances are made in front for u, all u havta do is just reach out and grab it... u might be able to grab it... this would be better at least u've tried rather than not trying for anything... that's the goal i'm aiming for... i'll still hold what i promised... well, not all of it, but perhaps 80% if it... i hope u do too... and u've been naughty again today... waiting to text me @ 7.59am... sometimes, u just shudnt... just GO TO BED!!! okay? well, not like it's my business if u got sick but... just DONT GET SICK...

Yong

haih

u wouldnt ever understand how i felt whn u said "JUST GIVE UP!!!" "U DONT HAVE ANY MORE CHANCES"

tink I felt gud doing such stuff to u?well, TOO BAD it's the real me now...u wudnt ever get the fake me back...so start to acept...the more u bother me, the more I h8 u...

and i wouldnt wanna explain or anything... maybe gonna leave this blog dead until i start being happie again...

SO, CYA!!!

mayb oni...

Yong