after getting yr reply

when u didnt reply me, i suddenly realised the importance of U in my life...suddenly felt that i'm actually in LOVE with U so deeply...loving U, being loved by U...i realised that i cant actually lose U...so i'm not gonna try sth tat would HURT u with the LOVE n TRUST u gave me(even tho I lyk to try stuff i've nvr tried b4)...bt i realised tat if i'd done sth tat hurts u, it's lyk losing my whole life...u're my everyting rmb?i realised that i almost lost u once, n tat it's not gonna happen the 2nd time cause i cant lose u...cos I LOVE U more than anyting in this whole wide world...JOCELYNN TIAN LI CHIEH...

<3 u always
Yong a.k.a Gmogu

after reading many blogs

really feel that i'm DUMB and done stupid stuff... well i read YR blog n u said u dont worry bout me... if u dont worry bout me, u wouldnt be typing stuff bout me right??? so that means u do care bout me... i knoe that and yet i still made u feel bad... i gave a bad impression to yr sister until she wanted u to not put having a rltnshp with me on fb... really feel ashamed of what i've done... anyways gtg now... gonna have a tutorial ltr...

i dont wish for yr 4giveness, but i only wishes for yr time to c that ther's still GOOD in me... and this SMALL GOOD in me, will surely grow from a SMALL seed into a HUGE tree overwhelming the BAD in me... just wanna say that ther's still HOPE in me and i hope u understands it... <3 u

<3 Yong a.k.a Gmogu

WAKE UP mr Yong!!!WAKE UP!!!

It's only a month n u're acting so not u...After a hot bath, I really thought of what i've done...N finally realised that, what i've done, really made U so heartbroken...

Yong, have u not realised what u've done?u're commiting a serious crime!!!u shudnt broke what u promised yr lynn...yr one and only lynn...when u hugged her,u made a promise to yrself...u said u'll live happily yrself in nz...not letting her worry...Bt look what u've done now?u made her worried sick for u...u made yr LOVEd ones worry too much for u...what have I done?i suddenly realised, this is real...i shudnt have done that...what i've done ytd, was over the tolerance limit u gave me...i finally realised, even if u're not by my side, we're in diff countries, I shud nvr evr made u worried...

I dont wish for yr 4giveness, bt I do hope i'll prove it to u, u'll get a newly improved YONG not being a alcoholic, not being a smoker, n evn not a guy who uses foul language...

So WAKE UP YONG!!!WAKE UP n face the fact that u've gone over the limit...n shud now step on the brake!!!

Yong a.k.a Gmogu

I REALLY am SORRY

didnt knoe what i did HURTED u...until after reading yr blog...i really am so sorry...tinking deeply now, what i did back ther...i finally realized, I gave u too much worries...Shudnt have done so...

1 more ting...i ever told u i cant go on on weekdays...And i jst read yr blog now...really am SORRY...i wont do those stuff again...this time, I really seriously promise u...i WONT do it again...so u dont havta worry bout me...i'll study as i promised...

i'm sorry got drunk ytd...really did sth stupid back ther...SORRY my DEAR...

<3 Yong a.k.a Gmogu

our 1st MONTHLY ANNIVERSARY...

called U today...feel HAPPIE hearing yr voice...bt i'm feeling ='{ sad },= now cause clumsy + 4getful me...didnt tell u happie anniversary...i mean it's OUR 1st MONTHLY ANNIVERSARY man...the 1 n only 1st MONTHLY ANNIVERSARY...ther's no more a 1st one...n me,yr hope n everyting...couldnt say it in person to u,b with u 4 our anniversary...how stupid m i?

n u oso said u missed a scholarship so i'm also sad 4 u...bt +u orh...干爸爹 can get other schols oso...don ever give up...

okay lo...l8 le...gtg bed...<3 u...

<3
Yong a.k.a Gmogu

gonna SLEEP soon

gonna sleep soon so using phone to blog... dad outside using n cousin in room using... hse got wifi so I curi curi scan wifi... heheh... notti me...

LYNN i miss u SO MUCHEE... worried u too... u asked me to wake u up 2mr @ 6am bt i dont feel lyk doing so... all i want is for u to get a good rest n not follow my time here,doing wad i'm doing... don owes wake so early bcos of me... mayb i'll wake u @ 9(yr time... not mine)...

dont knoe what happened to mum... keep tellin me to 努力 in my studies whn i told her u're planning to go for doctor... she kept saying things lyk

"lu tek ai tak chek kiang kiang a bo aun chua eh pei de shang lu eh zha bo peng ew?" and

"lu tak chek mai su ee a bo to lok eh pei de shang ee lei?" and

"lu bo tak chek kiang kiang ee si doctor mana eh ai lu?suo yi beh sai su horr ee."

after i heard these words, it worries me... dunno if u'll do such ting... bt i'm sure yr dad wil want u to marry a good guy... so i knt force u...

sleeping soon le... u oso don sleep l8...

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 U...

公蘑菇

WORRIED

i HATE u but <3 U SO MUCH...

u always IGNORE MY ADVICES... u always SKIP MEALS... u always CRY OVER SMALLL STUFF... u always STAY UP @ NIGHTs... u said u just wanted to be with me when i'm awake @ 7 and yr time is 2!!! u shud SLEEP OKAY??? i'm gonna be sad if u fall sick u knoe??? u always STAY UP just cause i'm going to UNI and u feel that u as a "wife" havta wake me up... i'm not PIG like u lah>.<''' u better get mroe rest... i dun wan when go back u bcome more 憔悴... i wan to c a HAPPIE and ENERGETIC LYNN when i get back... so better listen to my words...

oh and i rmb u said sth that u wanna pei me with my life in NZ... by doing what i'm doing lyk SLEEPING, WAKING ME UP(AS A LAOPO), AND STUFF... i dont really want u to do that bcos i dont wanna b dependent on u as i fear umay leave me bh and i'd be dependent on u... and i WORRY for yr HEALTH!!! better dun get sick... or i'm gonna be more WORRIED than ever... so btr listen to me...

today uni very happie lorr... met new friends, new life, everything new... except HATE assignments... haih...

LASTLY,
<3 U always

GUESS WHAT??? I DONT REALLY CARE!!!

dont knoe why when u told me u're gonna go for doctor, i feel very UNSAFE for u... a VERY VERY VERY *WORRYING THOUGHT* came into my mind... WHAT IF... WHAT IF sth BAD happens to u... WHAT IF... WHAT IF u got raped by those ANIMALS!!! or WHATSOEVER... DONT WORRY cause i'm still gonna MARRY U... thats my LIFETIME PROMISE TO U...

suddenly, i REMEMBERED u asking me if u got raped and will i sitll marry u... I THOUGHT... WHY NOT??? u're my laopo now, u're my laopo tmr, and u're gonna be my laopo for the rest for yr life... IDC what u feel... u SAID u'd feel dirty and automatically break up with me... BUT GUESS WHAT??? I DONT REALLY CARE!!! I'D SEARCH FOR U... NO MATTER WHER U ARE HIDING, I'M STILL GONNA FIND U OUT AND MARRY U!!!

FIRST THINGS FIRST!!! if u got raped or WHATSOEVER, i'd BASH that GUY up!!! i dont want anyone and i mean ANYONE to HURT u... i dont want u to feel GUILTY because of SMALL MATTERS... when i HUGGED u the other nite b4 i came BACK(NZ)... i made a promise to myself... and it's gonna be a LIFELONG PROMISE KEPT!!!

不管你走遍天涯海角, 我都一定会找到你... 你总是说我弄你哭蹄，如果我没弄你哭蹄, 我又怎么去安慰你, 爱你呢???
你知道吗? 在我正想离开时, 我好想, 好想的抱着你, 跟你说声再见... 可是不知道为什么, 我却没那么做... 我真是个笨蛋... 希望你别怪我...
我也该在此停笔了...

永(公蘑菇)
永远永远爱着你, 田丽洁你是我的永远!!!