haih

told me to dont bother u... don1 don1 lah... who cares... btw, this world de girls=.= really... dunnow ad to say... 4 30 am still not in bed... online play fb, msn... siao de=.= 4 30 go sleep lah... still stay up...

MORNING

ytd, fell asleep @ abt 7 or 8??? went to bed without dinner... cause... wasnt quite hungry and was depressed...

ytd, went to shopping @ foodtown(jst a shopping mall) with mum, bought some chocolate easter eggs... thn, i saw the price, 1 for 1.29. 4 for 3.00... so i just grabbed 4 as ther's chern, jan and my other cousin... thn as i was walking, i saw another place which sold the same eggs... well, this time, it stated, 1 packet for 3.59... i thought, LoL this is cheaper... maybe they have 5 in it... but when i checked it stated, 4 in a pack, 1 pack for 3.59... how stupid can that be??? =.='''

anyways, glad u told me the main reason... n i reli laughed till peng... jst cause such a small matter, which can be corrected by the technology nowadays, and maybe using the natural way... cause u said not to do operation for it's risking my EYES!!! might get blinded for that... >.< but i reli felt i was kinda harsh on u... shudnt have said those mean things to u... i knoe u;'re probably angry @ me... so i hope u 4give me for i wasnt in a good mood... anyways, u said 21/3 u made a promise... 1 year... i'll wait for that day to come... 21/03/2011... i just wish i could patch this hole in yr heart...

i've asked a fe friend... 8 to be exact... and thy all said... DONT WORRY TOO MUCH... it's just a small matter... she's just worrying too much... some even said.. she's probably having a period so she acted too "chong dong"... & if we truly LOVEd each other... we shudnt just give up on the other paty... cause ther's still 10 years b4 uw ant to get married... so why worry such stuff now??? probably yr dad will change in a way that u said... he's changing from being mean, to a better person... well... i had a bad dream ytd... and it was all abt u... but i doubt u would do that... dont feel like saying what i dreamt of...

while i was on the bus, i reli tried to pray... to GOD... i nvr knew what i shud say... but iw as just seeking for answers... i just asked... and asked and asked... i nvr knoe what's the correct way to pray... probabbly he wouldnt have heard me... but i do hope that i could patch the sadness u got... the hole in yr heart... not by me... but by those pple u said... i'll be the guy who's gonna patch it up... i'll be the guy who's gonna make u proud... i'll eb the guy who's gonna make every1 around me proud of... so... i wish, that ther's gonna be a miracle...

oh and!!! go to bed!!! it's 3 30 and u sent me a text saying u're not sleep yet!!! getting angry here!!!

wtf is wrong with this world???

always say me no chg, i changed... but what's the use of changing??? change le get such ****ing "NICE TREATMENT" huh???

if i changed to be good boy, useful??? i got DUMPed, next, my mum fell off the stairs @ work cause she was too worried that she might not send me to uni on time... chg be gudboy get such treatment huh... but i do sincerely pray to... idk, whoever u're up ther??? why do i get such treatment??? so change is useful??? change le get such payment... so does it mean if i died, none of these wil happen???

just now, after my test, wanted to send u a text... but i knoe, u dont k bout me anymore... send do wad??? let pple scold??? haih... i knoe u dont k bout me le... so dont say u still k... u just keep on hurting me... nvm... xi guan le... everytime i oso kena bully... jst dont make this volcano explode... i can tahan, i tahan, i knt, u c lor...

Yong

after a HOT SHOWER

getting ready for uni... as i'm having a test today, wont be attending the lectures for maths... while i was bathing, i thought, if i hate u for what u've done, it hurts me even more than anything... not talking to u, makes me even more uncomfortable... dont mean to hurt myself, but, i just wanted to... not that hurting myself to make u feel bad... but i just cant control it now... i dont need yr love to surpress it... it's the love of me to u that surpressed it... so, since u made the choice, i respect u for it... but still, i'll love u more thn anything in this whole wide world... for now, those memories, remain kept in a box in my heart, until the day the u-turn comes, it'll the day i reopen that box... i reli could wait for it... i dont mind... but for now, it's gonna be the real "ME"...

i always thought, chances are made in front for u, all u havta do is just reach out and grab it... u might be able to grab it... this would be better at least u've tried rather than not trying for anything... that's the goal i'm aiming for... i'll still hold what i promised... well, not all of it, but perhaps 80% if it... i hope u do too... and u've been naughty again today... waiting to text me @ 7.59am... sometimes, u just shudnt... just GO TO BED!!! okay? well, not like it's my business if u got sick but... just DONT GET SICK...

Yong

haih

u wouldnt ever understand how i felt whn u said "JUST GIVE UP!!!" "U DONT HAVE ANY MORE CHANCES"

tink I felt gud doing such stuff to u?well, TOO BAD it's the real me now...u wudnt ever get the fake me back...so start to acept...the more u bother me, the more I h8 u...

and i wouldnt wanna explain or anything... maybe gonna leave this blog dead until i start being happie again...

SO, CYA!!!

mayb oni...

Yong

DON WORRY

ytd, at night, was @ kenenths's house(place which i got drunk for my 1st time in my whole life)... i chatted with u ytd again... at 1st, didnt feel like it... but then, i felt... shudnt b so mean aye??? she's still the one i LOVE... even if she hurted me... what do uw ant to do??? make her suffer too??? NO... LOVING sum1 means that u want them to b happie too... right??? so that means if i chat v u, u'll b happie...

well we chatted whole night... and i rmb u told me: "dont jst wait for me, ther's still girls out ther"... but i knoe... deeply, u still LOVED me... so shud i or shud i not??? so i replied: "dunno"... cause i didnt wanna let u knoe what i'm thinking... scared u'll feel bad if u knoe it...

i knoe that u do nid time... i knoe u nid time to THINK... dont worry bout me... cause i can wait... i knoe u dont wanna miss me too much cause u're scared that it'll affect yr studies... so i'll wait... 6 yrs right?? 6 yrs will pass like a blink of an eye... so... still rmb telling u: "i dun wanna tell u if i'll wait for u"... but u said: "if u dun tell me, will make me much more sad"... so, to let u knoe now... i'll wait... 6/7 years after yr doctor's degree isnt long right??? since form 3, 3 yrs right??? since i've waited for 3 yrs, shud i wait for u again for 6 yrs??? *thinking deeply*, well, it's just doubling the time... wont be too long right??? so why dont try to wait??? haih...

Yong

after tinking for a night...

I soon realised that I cudnt lose u... bt what can I do? always told u let time decide... bt u... I dont wan this to happen... I dont wan it... I jst want to b happie with u... bt I knoe, that if I force u to b with me... u're not gonna b happie... so... I shudnt b so selfish...

tears kept running down my cheeks... I've nvr shed a single tear whn I broke up last time... in fact, i've nvr shed a tear for any other gurl b4... y does it havta b u? guess u're the repeat one... haih...

that's y i'll wait...

Yong a.k.a ...

FRUSTRATED

haih... suddenly, u came to me and said those words... dunno what to say... happie or sad??? happie??? happie for u cos i think too much for u? cause if we go on u'll feel tensed?? sumtimes, reli dunno what girls think... but, i hope i do... sad??? cause u're cruel to me??? haih... i just dun want to be bad to u...

<3 or h8??? if it's me i choose not to HATE u... cause i told u we can stil be friends no matter what... but what do i havta feel now??? tell me sumbody... H8 MY LIFE!!!

when i heard u cry, i'm asd too... my eyes were flooded too... but ntg drip down... its jst tears were accumulated... but... i just dont feel like dropping my tears... i shed... but DEEP DOWN, i'm SAD... dont cry... DONT EVER CRY!!!

well, thought of it... if ther's 0.01% chance, i'll make it multiplying 100, so ther's 1%, thn i'll multiply that 1% by 100 then, so ther's 100%!!! i wont GIVE UP... no matter what... tried to shed a tear, but, i just couldnt shed it!!! i dont noe... probably when i was a kid, i shed too much n my tears ran out??? >.< well, finally shed the tear... and when i shed it, dunno why jst couldnt control it... it just kept coming down... thats why i kept quiet... don wan u to hear it... didnt knoe it'd end up like this... but i respect u... if i knew it would end up like this, wouldnt stole yr ... u knoe what... i'm SORRY... apologize for that...

Yong