our 1st MONTHLY ANNIVERSARY...

called U today...feel HAPPIE hearing yr voice...bt i'm feeling ='{ sad },= now cause clumsy + 4getful me...didnt tell u happie anniversary...i mean it's OUR 1st MONTHLY ANNIVERSARY man...the 1 n only 1st MONTHLY ANNIVERSARY...ther's no more a 1st one...n me,yr hope n everyting...couldnt say it in person to u,b with u 4 our anniversary...how stupid m i?

n u oso said u missed a scholarship so i'm also sad 4 u...bt +u orh...干爸爹 can get other schols oso...don ever give up...

okay lo...l8 le...gtg bed...<3 u...

<3
Yong a.k.a Gmogu

gonna SLEEP soon

gonna sleep soon so using phone to blog... dad outside using n cousin in room using... hse got wifi so I curi curi scan wifi... heheh... notti me...

LYNN i miss u SO MUCHEE... worried u too... u asked me to wake u up 2mr @ 6am bt i dont feel lyk doing so... all i want is for u to get a good rest n not follow my time here,doing wad i'm doing... don owes wake so early bcos of me... mayb i'll wake u @ 9(yr time... not mine)...

dont knoe what happened to mum... keep tellin me to 努力 in my studies whn i told her u're planning to go for doctor... she kept saying things lyk

"lu tek ai tak chek kiang kiang a bo aun chua eh pei de shang lu eh zha bo peng ew?" and

"lu tak chek mai su ee a bo to lok eh pei de shang ee lei?" and

"lu bo tak chek kiang kiang ee si doctor mana eh ai lu?suo yi beh sai su horr ee."

after i heard these words, it worries me... dunno if u'll do such ting... bt i'm sure yr dad wil want u to marry a good guy... so i knt force u...

sleeping soon le... u oso don sleep l8...

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 U...

公蘑菇

WORRIED

i HATE u but <3 U SO MUCH...

u always IGNORE MY ADVICES... u always SKIP MEALS... u always CRY OVER SMALLL STUFF... u always STAY UP @ NIGHTs... u said u just wanted to be with me when i'm awake @ 7 and yr time is 2!!! u shud SLEEP OKAY??? i'm gonna be sad if u fall sick u knoe??? u always STAY UP just cause i'm going to UNI and u feel that u as a "wife" havta wake me up... i'm not PIG like u lah>.<''' u better get mroe rest... i dun wan when go back u bcome more 憔悴... i wan to c a HAPPIE and ENERGETIC LYNN when i get back... so better listen to my words...

oh and i rmb u said sth that u wanna pei me with my life in NZ... by doing what i'm doing lyk SLEEPING, WAKING ME UP(AS A LAOPO), AND STUFF... i dont really want u to do that bcos i dont wanna b dependent on u as i fear umay leave me bh and i'd be dependent on u... and i WORRY for yr HEALTH!!! better dun get sick... or i'm gonna be more WORRIED than ever... so btr listen to me...

today uni very happie lorr... met new friends, new life, everything new... except HATE assignments... haih...

LASTLY,
<3 U always

GUESS WHAT??? I DONT REALLY CARE!!!

dont knoe why when u told me u're gonna go for doctor, i feel very UNSAFE for u... a VERY VERY VERY *WORRYING THOUGHT* came into my mind... WHAT IF... WHAT IF sth BAD happens to u... WHAT IF... WHAT IF u got raped by those ANIMALS!!! or WHATSOEVER... DONT WORRY cause i'm still gonna MARRY U... thats my LIFETIME PROMISE TO U...

suddenly, i REMEMBERED u asking me if u got raped and will i sitll marry u... I THOUGHT... WHY NOT??? u're my laopo now, u're my laopo tmr, and u're gonna be my laopo for the rest for yr life... IDC what u feel... u SAID u'd feel dirty and automatically break up with me... BUT GUESS WHAT??? I DONT REALLY CARE!!! I'D SEARCH FOR U... NO MATTER WHER U ARE HIDING, I'M STILL GONNA FIND U OUT AND MARRY U!!!

FIRST THINGS FIRST!!! if u got raped or WHATSOEVER, i'd BASH that GUY up!!! i dont want anyone and i mean ANYONE to HURT u... i dont want u to feel GUILTY because of SMALL MATTERS... when i HUGGED u the other nite b4 i came BACK(NZ)... i made a promise to myself... and it's gonna be a LIFELONG PROMISE KEPT!!!

不管你走遍天涯海角, 我都一定会找到你... 你总是说我弄你哭蹄，如果我没弄你哭蹄, 我又怎么去安慰你, 爱你呢???
你知道吗? 在我正想离开时, 我好想, 好想的抱着你, 跟你说声再见... 可是不知道为什么, 我却没那么做... 我真是个笨蛋... 希望你别怪我...
我也该在此停笔了...

永(公蘑菇)
永远永远爱着你, 田丽洁你是我的永远!!!

BLOGGING in UNI

LoL... met a new friend who's doing the same course as me and now i'm BLOGGING in the LIBRARY... =.=''' gonna havta wait 2 hrs b4 my next class starts... now i'm just trying to fix that crap LOVE thing so that it goes well...=.=


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THE LAST SIGHT @ U

i looked @ u b4 going back to NZ, as i want to have the last look of yr FACE... i knoe u do wanna PULL onto me NOT LETTTING me GO as u want me to stay behind and u just cant face the SELFISHNESS in yrself... DONT FEEL BAD as i myself wanted to stay behind with u, loving u as much as u loved me, giving u the CARE as u gave me... but i knoe u wanted to let me OUT OF THE CAGE, lemme FLY LIKE A BIRD FLYing free in the SKY HEALED from INJURIES... but when i'm FREE, i'm still gonna MISS the care u took for me... and i didnt wanna be MEAN not looking @ u REMEMBERING the FACE of the SAVIOUR who HEALED my WOUNDS when i got HURT...

reli feel sad when pple talk bout religious things to me... ='{ i do believe in every god that people believes but i dont reli get things down too deep... hope u understand... it doesnt mean i'll stop loving u... i'll NEVER EVER STOP <3ing u... but it means i'll KEEP loving u NO MATTER what problems i FACED...

called u again today, CANT STOP MISSING yr SOUND... really happie to hear yr sound... and hearing u say I LOVE U to me, but i always knoe no MATTER HOW in love we r, ther's still always a barrier in between us... i really do hope that barrier would be like a piece of glass, easily smashed even with my FISTS... or the barrier would be like THIN AIR, which COULD NEVER STOP US loving each other...

it's also quite late and i'll havta get in bed as i'll be needing to wake up early tmr... dont 4get that I ALWAYS LOVE U... no matter how many times i said it, i knoe it wouldnt be enough...

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MISS u so MUCH

27th Feb 2010
very very very SORRY as i told u i could online @ brunei airport but actually thy dont provide free wifi... what a shit as airport...

from BRUNEI, i FLEW to AUCKLAND being inside the plane for 10 hours+/-... COULDNT STOP MISSing U... LYNN, really missed u so much on the plane... i slept inside and also woke up... TINKing of U... DIDNT HUG LYNN BEAR as dad packed it up in the luggage... had 2 meals in the plane and slept then woke up, slept and the enxt thing i knew, i'm here in AUCKLAND...

well, when i reached i texted u of course... but my phone went through some problems so i had to DLT all the msges u sent me in M'SIA... after a few mins, i found out that the phone was some sorta upside down, and so i didnt had to DLT yr msges... THIS made me SAD... as i 'm so CLUMSY and dlted yr MSGes...

shudnt have done that... well, called u again when i reached home... WORRIED, MISS n <3 u too MUCH i guess... 2mr's gonna be uni day so i slept early...

TODAY
well i woke up @ 6 am and saw yr msg and u didnt sleep @ all... waiting for me i guess... BUT u HAVTA sleep too... u BETTER get a good REST b4 waiting for me... >=3 then i woke @ 7.30 am to get ready for uni... UNI...... ISNT FUN @ all... i guess i hadnt made any friends yet so i tink it's NOT FUN @ all... then i went home for the day @ 11.30 skipping a class starting @ 12... hehe naughty me... MUM bought me a "a week pass" for buses n trains... well i'll havta be more persistent with this course as i MADE a PROMISE to U(my dear MOGU)... i BLOGGED here risking my um to come upstaris therfore i typed very fast and havta end it in a few more sentences...

ALWAYS <3ing U...

公蘑菇

the LAST day

i'm very HAPPIE as u always said u cant come out with me... but in the end, u always end up coming out... it's d last day and i hope u could come to the bbq @ my aunt's hse... and u kept saying u could not... and i kept pushing u to come to the end, FORCING U TO COME... am i being too selfish or what??? i dont really knoe if i've done the RIGHT thing FORCING u to come...

well, in d end u showed up and i'm VERY VERY HAPPIE... didnt expect ut o come... dont even noe if this'll get u into trouble with yr dad... really feel unsafe for u... i dont really want u to get HURT... i hope i could stand up for u... really really wanna protect u like a human shield...

i'm thinking if u're coming to the AIRPORT tmr, u're gonna cry, and if i see it, probably i'll END up crying too... but i noe i wont cry so easilly... i dont wanna see u cry too... i want u to LIVE happie while i'm not by yr side... i will LIVE very happie w/o u by my side... & dont worry i wont find another "LYNN" to replace u back in nz... and i hope ther's no other "ME" here... MAYB i'm jst too worried... i'm sure i shudnt be so "duo xin"... cause i noe u wont find another "ME" as i BLIF in u...

really dont wanna let go of my hands, but I noe I SHUD,
dont wanna let U out of the cage, but I noe I MUST,
wanna stay with U, but I noe I CANT,
WHAT SHUD I DO??? I JUST KNOE THAT I SHUDNT BE SO SELFISH if i really cared bout u...

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 U 4EVA MY DARLING