sad

i saw u online today. but then on my list, u're blocked... so i tried unblocking you, but u went straight off... this is kinda sad to know it... but... i still feel sad seeing this... i duno what i shud do... shud i call you on you mobile phone? or jst not bother?

frustrated =(

sooooo long didnt update

well, guess thats because uni is getting tougher... and the other day, friday, while i got on the bus, i texted with a friend, then we chatted about past stuff... then it was this chat about you... i suddenly felt that i miss u all of a sudden... then after chatting again, i wanted to call you but i didnt do it... duno why before reaching the stop, i actually looked to the sky and thought a lot of things...then w/o realizing, a drop of tear shed down my eye... i suddenly missed you, thought about everything we've been through... then i realised it was because of what i did perhaps... it made you dislike me... haihs... but i duno how to even get back our relationship... do hope you're not reading it... =(

lazy

in lecture now... but then it's a lecture with computers required... so well, i jst poped by my blog since i havent been updating it often... this lecture is so damn hard!!! how can i strive through this semester?

NOTE to SELF: YONG!!! wake up, stop gaming and stuff... just concentrate!!!

i'm sure i can do it... CAN i?

DAMN

have i bcome an alcoholic? everyday with my boss would b jst drinkin beer while watching them bet on horses... HaiH... jst shotted 1 bottle heineken down my throat... my boss always make fun of me saying i've bcome an alcoholic... HMMM... perhaps i shud train harder till i wont get drunk easily in the future... =D yeap... that'd b my AIM!!!

working days~~~

Sunday, wake up, get to site, mix plaster, carry buckets of 20++ KGs plaster to boss and another uncle for them to put it on wall... get home, rest, bath, beer, watch oss and the uncle bet on horses

Monday, same stuff

Tuesday, again, same stuff

Wednesday, hmmm, same stuff again

Thursday, same old stuff

Friday, same boring routine

Saturday, same old routine

my boss's RULE, WORK HARD, PLAY HARD(horse betting), SMOKE HARD, FUCK HARD(find hooker), DRINK HARD...

well, altho he has few rules, i only did FEW of them, WORK HARD & DRINK HARD... LoLs

todae, had to move packets of plasters up to truck, thn down from truck, and move to anotha builder's truck again, tmr need move them down from his truck at work again... boss stronger thn me, but he only moved 1 bag but told me to move 2 bags at once... 1 bag = 25KG... well, i think my boss sprained his back so cant move so many packs... he told me, this can help u build up yr strength and stamina... =D

OMGosH???

went online on msn, then i saw u online? was it myself imagining things or what? why i always online on ma phone also cant see u online and now i saw u online? i wanted to talk to u, but i rememebered u saying to leave me alone, leave my life forever, leave my world forever, so i tried nudging u, well, no response... guess that means that u dont want to talk to me... nvm then... i know what kind of person i'm like... not yr fault... and yeah, if u;re reading this, i know u have been to my blog to read my posts... at least that's what i think... maybe u didnt came to my blog... all jst a guessing... anyways, G9 readers =D

shud i or shud i not?

4get or not to 4get? altho now i'm happie, but whenever i read some of yr stuff online, i feel sad... what have i done to u... i'm pretty sure u wuldnt even come near me anymore... after reading yr older blog posts, i realised i felt sad in my heart... but duno why i dont1 to find the happiness in it... i always secretly behind u go read abt yr stuff, yr life there... whenever i think of it, i jst hope u'll b happie always... so shud i let go completely or not??? >=(

SAD ='(

IS SAD~~~when i just got on the bus this morning, i saw this guy who was searching the bin for some stuff.. so i thought to myself, maybe he's finding some stuff so that he could recycle it and get some $$ frm it... but after i looked again, he took out 2 cups of coffee, then MIXed them together, then drank it... i'm like!!! WTF thats so SAD... then i saw him going to another bin again, then i thought, maybe he jst nid a cup of coffee, then he can continue searching for stuff he can sell, but as the bus pass, i saw him EATing sth that he took out of the 2nd bin in his hands...reli felt SAD for him...