30/03/2010

today, had a chat with u, baru noe u sick... well, i noe its my fault... kept on asking u to eat bfast... didnt knoe u cant eat in morning... sometimes, just think deeply in my heart... *YONG, u're 1 DUMB BASTARD... dont understand pple, still wan to care bout pple...* =.='''

suan le bah... i'll just let time be... let time decide, let faith decide, let them decide everything... i'll just stay simple, low and act dumb... sometimes, reli have so much unanswered questions in my heart... but i just didnt bother in asking pple, didnt bother to let pple ask me... whenever pple ask me questions like "how r u today?" even my day is bad, i didnt wanna tell it... i'd say "GOOD, and how's yrs?" but in fact my day was shit...

today i kept on nagging @ u again... so i wont be nagging to u anymore since u dont like it... furthermore, like what u said... u're not anyone to me... so i can enjoy life... GET DRUNK, DO WHATEVER I WANT... but sometimes, reli felt myself going over the limit... but i just wanna venture out deeper into the woods... deeper into the places i nvr ventured before...

well good nite, XoxO...


LovE from
Yong

just got RELEASED from PRISON~~~

well, actually was just finished having an accounting exam... =} and mum said cuase it's last exam, so can RELAX tonite... hehe... dunno if she means every other night... >.< anyways friday, EASTER HOLIDAYS!!! 2 WEEKS... yeah!!! plans, hmmm 3 days 2 night @ kenneth's hse, movie night @ alan's... maybe WOLFTEAM night @ my place??? >=3

when i got home, didnt eat dinner... i mean didnt eat rice... ate the cauliflower... and now drinking coffee... hehe...>.< so how r U??? whole morning talk to u oso no reply de... AVOIDing me??? TTT^TTT

yeah and today a fren told me that maybe pisar hut(wher he works) wan employ ppl in 1 or 2 months... employ sumtimes nid deliver 屁洒 lorr... drive scooter.. but i noe how drive lorr... >.<''' ^^ jst donno if my mum will let me drive... >.< dont dare tell her...

in uni now~~~

haih... jst now, 10am-11am, had a maths lecture, thn now nid wait here 2 hrs till my next lecture @ 1pm-2pm=.= thn nid wait another 4 hours until 6pm for my accounting test till 8pm... how boring can that be??? hiding in the library as it is very COLD outside... haih~~~

tiring day

whole body ache cause of ytd nite's ice skating...

Haih...1 week after yr presence isnt felt by my side...dono I shud b happie or sad...anyways...yp will miss u cause everytime while i'm waiting for her to on, u always pei me to get over tat boredom...TQ...hope u enjoy yrself in NS...

tmr having acc test...how?10 am nid go sch for lectures, till 2 pm...bt 6.15 test...till 8...So guess that 4 hrs time cant go home thn...cause to get home nid 1 hr 30, get back uni 1 hr 30...So if middle got 4hrs, minus 3 get 1 hr at home btr stay in uni...wish me LUCK

Yong

hehe

ytd night, went to ice skating... had HEAPS of fun... 4get wad i wan say le... ytd got sibeh lotsa stuff to say... now morning 4get jorr... my brain's reli getting old but not me... ='{

not jst u... bt many pple... MOST of thm said I shudnt give up... 1 or 2 said I shud... bt it's 1 or 2 outta 12=.= Hehe... so guess i'll keep climbing... even being kicked downhill... i'll keep climbing uphill...

tried to talk nicely with u... well, felt great... and u!!! owes no eat bfast and lunch!!! thn still drink orange juice when u noe yrself got gastric de genes!!! mou ngan tai...

<3 Yong

MISSing U...

suddenly sth came to my mind...yuan lai...was tinking abt u again...after what I did ytd...didnt knoe if I shud stil talk to u...bt...it's like...owh IDK...heard few friends telling me i've acted harshly to u...and that some girls ask for break-ups is jst to test d boy's LOVE towards thm...or whatsoever...well...that's me...always acting harshly...

jst now di tou talk to u...u still wan to say those stuff that's like u're freaking angry...diu...di tou oso wrong?

quite happy to hear that UMSA(Union Malaysian Student in Auckland)'s organizing an ice skating on saturday...LOVE ice skating...

haih

told me to dont bother u... don1 don1 lah... who cares... btw, this world de girls=.= really... dunnow ad to say... 4 30 am still not in bed... online play fb, msn... siao de=.= 4 30 go sleep lah... still stay up...

MORNING

ytd, fell asleep @ abt 7 or 8??? went to bed without dinner... cause... wasnt quite hungry and was depressed...

ytd, went to shopping @ foodtown(jst a shopping mall) with mum, bought some chocolate easter eggs... thn, i saw the price, 1 for 1.29. 4 for 3.00... so i just grabbed 4 as ther's chern, jan and my other cousin... thn as i was walking, i saw another place which sold the same eggs... well, this time, it stated, 1 packet for 3.59... i thought, LoL this is cheaper... maybe they have 5 in it... but when i checked it stated, 4 in a pack, 1 pack for 3.59... how stupid can that be??? =.='''

anyways, glad u told me the main reason... n i reli laughed till peng... jst cause such a small matter, which can be corrected by the technology nowadays, and maybe using the natural way... cause u said not to do operation for it's risking my EYES!!! might get blinded for that... >.< but i reli felt i was kinda harsh on u... shudnt have said those mean things to u... i knoe u;'re probably angry @ me... so i hope u 4give me for i wasnt in a good mood... anyways, u said 21/3 u made a promise... 1 year... i'll wait for that day to come... 21/03/2011... i just wish i could patch this hole in yr heart...

i've asked a fe friend... 8 to be exact... and thy all said... DONT WORRY TOO MUCH... it's just a small matter... she's just worrying too much... some even said.. she's probably having a period so she acted too "chong dong"... & if we truly LOVEd each other... we shudnt just give up on the other paty... cause ther's still 10 years b4 uw ant to get married... so why worry such stuff now??? probably yr dad will change in a way that u said... he's changing from being mean, to a better person... well... i had a bad dream ytd... and it was all abt u... but i doubt u would do that... dont feel like saying what i dreamt of...

while i was on the bus, i reli tried to pray... to GOD... i nvr knew what i shud say... but iw as just seeking for answers... i just asked... and asked and asked... i nvr knoe what's the correct way to pray... probabbly he wouldnt have heard me... but i do hope that i could patch the sadness u got... the hole in yr heart... not by me... but by those pple u said... i'll be the guy who's gonna patch it up... i'll be the guy who's gonna make u proud... i'll eb the guy who's gonna make every1 around me proud of... so... i wish, that ther's gonna be a miracle...

oh and!!! go to bed!!! it's 3 30 and u sent me a text saying u're not sleep yet!!! getting angry here!!!

wtf is wrong with this world???

always say me no chg, i changed... but what's the use of changing??? change le get such ****ing "NICE TREATMENT" huh???

if i changed to be good boy, useful??? i got DUMPed, next, my mum fell off the stairs @ work cause she was too worried that she might not send me to uni on time... chg be gudboy get such treatment huh... but i do sincerely pray to... idk, whoever u're up ther??? why do i get such treatment??? so change is useful??? change le get such payment... so does it mean if i died, none of these wil happen???

just now, after my test, wanted to send u a text... but i knoe, u dont k bout me anymore... send do wad??? let pple scold??? haih... i knoe u dont k bout me le... so dont say u still k... u just keep on hurting me... nvm... xi guan le... everytime i oso kena bully... jst dont make this volcano explode... i can tahan, i tahan, i knt, u c lor...

Yong

after a HOT SHOWER

getting ready for uni... as i'm having a test today, wont be attending the lectures for maths... while i was bathing, i thought, if i hate u for what u've done, it hurts me even more than anything... not talking to u, makes me even more uncomfortable... dont mean to hurt myself, but, i just wanted to... not that hurting myself to make u feel bad... but i just cant control it now... i dont need yr love to surpress it... it's the love of me to u that surpressed it... so, since u made the choice, i respect u for it... but still, i'll love u more thn anything in this whole wide world... for now, those memories, remain kept in a box in my heart, until the day the u-turn comes, it'll the day i reopen that box... i reli could wait for it... i dont mind... but for now, it's gonna be the real "ME"...

i always thought, chances are made in front for u, all u havta do is just reach out and grab it... u might be able to grab it... this would be better at least u've tried rather than not trying for anything... that's the goal i'm aiming for... i'll still hold what i promised... well, not all of it, but perhaps 80% if it... i hope u do too... and u've been naughty again today... waiting to text me @ 7.59am... sometimes, u just shudnt... just GO TO BED!!! okay? well, not like it's my business if u got sick but... just DONT GET SICK...

Yong

haih

u wouldnt ever understand how i felt whn u said "JUST GIVE UP!!!" "U DONT HAVE ANY MORE CHANCES"

tink I felt gud doing such stuff to u?well, TOO BAD it's the real me now...u wudnt ever get the fake me back...so start to acept...the more u bother me, the more I h8 u...

and i wouldnt wanna explain or anything... maybe gonna leave this blog dead until i start being happie again...

SO, CYA!!!

mayb oni...

Yong

DON WORRY

ytd, at night, was @ kenenths's house(place which i got drunk for my 1st time in my whole life)... i chatted with u ytd again... at 1st, didnt feel like it... but then, i felt... shudnt b so mean aye??? she's still the one i LOVE... even if she hurted me... what do uw ant to do??? make her suffer too??? NO... LOVING sum1 means that u want them to b happie too... right??? so that means if i chat v u, u'll b happie...

well we chatted whole night... and i rmb u told me: "dont jst wait for me, ther's still girls out ther"... but i knoe... deeply, u still LOVED me... so shud i or shud i not??? so i replied: "dunno"... cause i didnt wanna let u knoe what i'm thinking... scared u'll feel bad if u knoe it...

i knoe that u do nid time... i knoe u nid time to THINK... dont worry bout me... cause i can wait... i knoe u dont wanna miss me too much cause u're scared that it'll affect yr studies... so i'll wait... 6 yrs right?? 6 yrs will pass like a blink of an eye... so... still rmb telling u: "i dun wanna tell u if i'll wait for u"... but u said: "if u dun tell me, will make me much more sad"... so, to let u knoe now... i'll wait... 6/7 years after yr doctor's degree isnt long right??? since form 3, 3 yrs right??? since i've waited for 3 yrs, shud i wait for u again for 6 yrs??? *thinking deeply*, well, it's just doubling the time... wont be too long right??? so why dont try to wait??? haih...

Yong

after tinking for a night...

I soon realised that I cudnt lose u... bt what can I do? always told u let time decide... bt u... I dont wan this to happen... I dont wan it... I jst want to b happie with u... bt I knoe, that if I force u to b with me... u're not gonna b happie... so... I shudnt b so selfish...

tears kept running down my cheeks... I've nvr shed a single tear whn I broke up last time... in fact, i've nvr shed a tear for any other gurl b4... y does it havta b u? guess u're the repeat one... haih...

that's y i'll wait...

Yong a.k.a ...

FRUSTRATED

haih... suddenly, u came to me and said those words... dunno what to say... happie or sad??? happie??? happie for u cos i think too much for u? cause if we go on u'll feel tensed?? sumtimes, reli dunno what girls think... but, i hope i do... sad??? cause u're cruel to me??? haih... i just dun want to be bad to u...

<3 or h8??? if it's me i choose not to HATE u... cause i told u we can stil be friends no matter what... but what do i havta feel now??? tell me sumbody... H8 MY LIFE!!!

when i heard u cry, i'm asd too... my eyes were flooded too... but ntg drip down... its jst tears were accumulated... but... i just dont feel like dropping my tears... i shed... but DEEP DOWN, i'm SAD... dont cry... DONT EVER CRY!!!

well, thought of it... if ther's 0.01% chance, i'll make it multiplying 100, so ther's 1%, thn i'll multiply that 1% by 100 then, so ther's 100%!!! i wont GIVE UP... no matter what... tried to shed a tear, but, i just couldnt shed it!!! i dont noe... probably when i was a kid, i shed too much n my tears ran out??? >.< well, finally shed the tear... and when i shed it, dunno why jst couldnt control it... it just kept coming down... thats why i kept quiet... don wan u to hear it... didnt knoe it'd end up like this... but i respect u... if i knew it would end up like this, wouldnt stole yr ... u knoe what... i'm SORRY... apologize for that...

Yong

today in legal n social evironment of business

hahaha check these photos out...





CHECK IT OUT!!! this girl went on trademe n tried to put her virginity on sold for NZD 45000 to pay her UNI fees... unfortunately, trademe declined her request... ahahaha =.='''

other case is that there's this couple wanted to get married but had a budget to follow and wanted to save $$ on their marriage... then, jiu send email to this wedding planner company... then check out the email they replied... thn lecturer asked what shud the employer do with this worker thn??? CLASS: " fire lah"... LECTURER: "but the prob is that this employee who wrote the letter was boss' wife" ahaha =.='''





and check this out too... GUESS what this BANKER was doing while the news report saying bout interest rate is on... WATCHING PORN!!! ahahaha...

BP rate, 132 57 69... haih... no eat cuttlefish le still like this=.= eat better still can enjoy

<3 u always MY MOGU

<3
Yong a.k.a Gmogu

sumtimes~~~

sometimes, reli wondered what have i done to deserve such ill treatings??? haiz... dun fan le bah... hurting my brain power nia... save it better...

tbh, after reading yr blog, I still feel that it's nvr yr fault...if I didnt go online to look for u, u wouldnt have had to chat v me...everytime u dont reply, I always nudge u til u replied...SORRY...all my fault...DONT blame yrself cny more okay?

<3
Yong a.k.a Gmogu

haih

was chatting v u jst now... u were using yr phone... then suddenly, yr line went crazy(what u told me)... i was worried sick as the msn showed u're online but i keep talking to u, u nvr replied... made me worried sick for u... but nvm, as u went online @ 3 35 and explained to me... and u also said oni can use till 5... haih... nvm lah... got 1 hr 30 mins better thn nothing right?

so, today not much happened... was told that next monday got test and next next monday too... maths then accounting... haih... maths easy but acc hard... hate it... but no choice, havta be more hardworking as i don wan u to suffer in that hse le... i wanna bring u away, high n away...

but just now after chatting v u, u said u want to forbid me off9... well, i'll still tou tou on9 in room if can... n probably will go off anytime as if mumm stil using, i can tou her line, if not, sheoff, will dc... so >.< i'll reload my phone bah... haih...

suddenly remembered that mum once asked me "ee ai tak hamik?"
and i said "doctor lorr... tapi ee siang ka si ai ua ki tak dentist."
mum "a neh cho mik ee mai ki otago tak?"
me "wa ma na eh chai? ee siang kasi ti kua king scholarship uu lai jia eh"
mum "ee chu lai bo lui eh orh?"
me "bo lah... ee just mai yiong ee lao bah eh lui."
mum "o..."
then, i thought very deeply, no matter u rich or poor, i dont mind... but i do mind that u're not here studying with me... haih... dunno wad to say...

so, if u read this, dont worry... money matters not bah... haih... just mum asking rand. questions abt U(she too gin tio wan noe her sim bu.. actually i noe mum dont mind if rich or poor...)~~~hahahaha...

mai cibai!!! so beh song now... everyday wan to make me angry... my mood good good de u keep take knife poke me, then i tolerate, u poke AGAIN, and i tolerate AGAIN, then tell u better stop, but u still poke me!!! wan make me HOT nia... 1 day nag like 10 fucking times u not sian??? just cos i yr 13 fail, u keep insul tme... keep say Yong u get shit as results, why still dint hardworking??? i dint meh??? i yr 13 project oni do like 1 week b4... now 1 month b4 do u still say not hardworking... wan me dun even noe wad teacher gib thn jiu start doing??? teacher gib i straight do... not enuf??? mood ben lai good good de... now make me FUCKing angry nia... keep say say say... not tat i dint listen... i do project whole nite, do till no more points in my head, i go watch movie 15 mins relax, u say me purposely wait u in room, tou tou watch movie... WTF??? its all just coincidence ok??? i promise can in UNI, now me not in uni??? but u say "u in that UNI cos u no other choices..." my ass lah, i in cos i 1st place alr say wan QS... i yr 13 alr keep say wan Qs, it's cos too far so i dun wan travel... but u say it in diff point of view??? FAROUT MAN... SLEEP le lah... XoxO

but still, when u say "DONT ANGRY THEM FOR ME OKAY?" i just couldnt bear not listening to u... haih... is this LOVE??? i just dun wna u HURT bcos of me... haiz...

<3
Yong a.k.a Gmogu

today

while in bus, suddenly thought of u... MISSed u so much... wanna noe reason??? cos u owes smell like powder... >=3 and today when on bus to uni, there's a gal passing by to get to the back, and i was gonna fall asleep le... suddenly smelt POWDER de smell... so sibeh sibeh miss u till knt sleep qu... haizZz... dunno what that feeling was, but suddenly feel very energetic...

then when in legal and social environment of business, guess what??? i took a screenshot... sibeh funnie...

CHECK THE TITLE AND THE ONE I CIRCLED!!!HAHAH



haha b4 sleep get to knoe what's bothering u... well @ least now i noe... gonna help u UNSUFFER yrself soon... when i grow up, i HOPE... HOPE nia lah... HOPE to MARRY u!!! <3 U 4EVA!!!

<3
Yong a.k.a Gmogu

my BLOOOD PRESSURE rates

this morning, after having breakfast, i had a BLOOD PRESSURE rating using the "machine" thing... guess what??? normal people, shud have their rate readings as 120, 80 and 60++? idk... 1st and 2nd is the blood pumping rate of the heart in n out... 3rd one is the heartbeat rate...

i did 3 trials... so for me, i got my results as 151, 64, and 68... 2nd time was 140, 58, 70... and 3rd time, i got 130, 63, 72... way weird from the "machine"... but well, i think this means i got HBP(High Blood Pressure) right??? so then, mum gave me a packet of "seeds" saying "use 1 teaspoon to 泡水 and drink... keep adding hot water when u drink finish... this will help in lowering yr BP..." so i did as asked... but still cant stop eating CUTTLEFISH!!!

oh and almost forgot, she also asked me "li jie eh scholarship wu lai OTAGO eh borr???" and didnt knoe how to answer, but i said think so... and said she'll be trying to get into DENTISTRY i guess???

afternoon went to take fridge with dad and when back, 1 mins late talking to u... but u came on9 when i smsed u... feel so happie... but very hate myself cause u busy thn still ask u on... but i CANT STOP <3in U... just CANT!!!

well, got to knoe u going back to seri aman... n u also said i'm not your cup of tea right??? but @ least u said i'm yr cup of coffee... another reason why i CANT STOP <3in U!!!

LoL b4 sleep still check BP, it's 139, 65, 75...>.<''' i tiam le lah...

<3
Yong a.k.a Gmogu

gonna sleep soon

now mum kept nagging us(me n chern) to sleep le... today had a video call with u... very happie... but when u had to go out, felt sad... but felt happie too... @ least i knoe u;re gonna have dinner... a PROPER MEAL... u always skip meals but now @ least u;re going to have sth... hope u wont stay up late again tonite as we can chat again tmr... don worry cause on weekends, ic an chat v u... NITES XoxO

<3
Yong a.k.a Gmogu

good to hear u guys de results

to those who scored well, HI-5 & good luck in yr scholarship applying tihng...

and to those who didnt do well, well well well, better try harder whn u get into uni or form 6 or what... cause tht reli will determine yr whole life... now fall down nvm, u just havta climb up and walk normal agian!!!

like me, i used to play much while i wa sin YR 13(NZ lah of course)... thn i scored like SHIT as RESULTS... like out of 20 papers, i FAILED 11 papers... LoL~~~ dont think anyone did better thn me... well, now i just somehow or dunno how got into uni and i even got gf now... so i dont wanna fail myself like my mum said... if i fail, thn she gets to be a doctr, thn me jiu reli lose face... so i'll be sibeh hardworking le... so to those who fell, climb up now... it's nvr too late...

sei lynn lynn... H8 U co su owes read my blog le put comments thn when i reply, u nvr reply back de=.='''... but DW, altho i H8 u, my H8red couldnt be compared to my <3 for u... my <3 for u is like infinite times my h8 towards u... so really feel that i shudnt be H8ing u... <3

Yong a.k.a Gmogu

U!!!

today u dint take breakfast again!!! and even worst not even lunch!!! i dont knoe why u always do this... mayb cos i owes joke out u're fat ba... i feel bad OKAY? u;re not fat!!! u're not @ all... dont torture yrself bcos of me... i dont like it!!!

u always ask me to "control" u... when i ask u to EAT!!! u DONT listen!!! Y??? Y??? Y??? well, the fact is, i dont wanna control yr life... in fact, i HATE it!!! terribly HATE controlling yr life!!! it's jst like u will have no privacy and stuff... it'll make u miserable... i'm sure u will feel uncomfortable if i keep controlling u... i <3 u so MUCH... but i just dun wanna control yr life... i just COULDNT do it u knoe??? 不忍心... get it???

after CHIT CHAT with U

after having msn chats with u, feel like i'm so USELESS... tmr U and ALL SPM FRIENDS de RESULTS coming out le... n yet, i couldnt do anything useful... being by yr side, SUPPORTing u, COMFORTing u... and much more... u said u probably cant sleep tonite cause u're too worried... i still rmb u said u will have nightmares often at nights... but, i wasnt ther by yr side everytime... but being FAR FAR FAR AWAY from U... feel that i'm like a USELESS BF right now...

u asked me today saying "if u broke my heart one day, cause u found the "BETTER ONE"... would i wish u gud?" i kept on replying u while using msn on my mobile, but it seemed that "GOD(as in any GOD cause i'm a free thinker)" didnt want my message to be delivered to u... actually i'd really feel BAD for it, feel SAD for it, feel DEPRESSED for it... but i would rather sincerely wish u to be happie always with yr "BETTER ONE"... i'd rather u stay happie always than be by my side, being my wife, but not being happie... i dont want this to happen... i want u to always be happie... and if yr "BETTER ONE" bullies u or anything, u can always come and complain to me, we can always be like BROTHERs n SISTERs like we used to be... n i'd listen to yr heart problems(direct translation from chinese...HAHA) like i used to...

i'm thinking now, why can u be by my side when i'm DEPRESSED, facing problems, but not me being by yr side when u're having such problems... u kept asking me to go to bed... i just wanna ACCOMPANY U, CARE for U, LOVE U like u used to do for me...

well, gonna go bed now... it's kinda getting late now...

<3
Yong a.k.a Gmogu

after getting yr reply

when u didnt reply me, i suddenly realised the importance of U in my life...suddenly felt that i'm actually in LOVE with U so deeply...loving U, being loved by U...i realised that i cant actually lose U...so i'm not gonna try sth tat would HURT u with the LOVE n TRUST u gave me(even tho I lyk to try stuff i've nvr tried b4)...bt i realised tat if i'd done sth tat hurts u, it's lyk losing my whole life...u're my everyting rmb?i realised that i almost lost u once, n tat it's not gonna happen the 2nd time cause i cant lose u...cos I LOVE U more than anyting in this whole wide world...JOCELYNN TIAN LI CHIEH...

<3 u always
Yong a.k.a Gmogu

after reading many blogs

really feel that i'm DUMB and done stupid stuff... well i read YR blog n u said u dont worry bout me... if u dont worry bout me, u wouldnt be typing stuff bout me right??? so that means u do care bout me... i knoe that and yet i still made u feel bad... i gave a bad impression to yr sister until she wanted u to not put having a rltnshp with me on fb... really feel ashamed of what i've done... anyways gtg now... gonna have a tutorial ltr...

i dont wish for yr 4giveness, but i only wishes for yr time to c that ther's still GOOD in me... and this SMALL GOOD in me, will surely grow from a SMALL seed into a HUGE tree overwhelming the BAD in me... just wanna say that ther's still HOPE in me and i hope u understands it... <3 u

<3 Yong a.k.a Gmogu

WAKE UP mr Yong!!!WAKE UP!!!

It's only a month n u're acting so not u...After a hot bath, I really thought of what i've done...N finally realised that, what i've done, really made U so heartbroken...

Yong, have u not realised what u've done?u're commiting a serious crime!!!u shudnt broke what u promised yr lynn...yr one and only lynn...when u hugged her,u made a promise to yrself...u said u'll live happily yrself in nz...not letting her worry...Bt look what u've done now?u made her worried sick for u...u made yr LOVEd ones worry too much for u...what have I done?i suddenly realised, this is real...i shudnt have done that...what i've done ytd, was over the tolerance limit u gave me...i finally realised, even if u're not by my side, we're in diff countries, I shud nvr evr made u worried...

I dont wish for yr 4giveness, bt I do hope i'll prove it to u, u'll get a newly improved YONG not being a alcoholic, not being a smoker, n evn not a guy who uses foul language...

So WAKE UP YONG!!!WAKE UP n face the fact that u've gone over the limit...n shud now step on the brake!!!

Yong a.k.a Gmogu

I REALLY am SORRY

didnt knoe what i did HURTED u...until after reading yr blog...i really am so sorry...tinking deeply now, what i did back ther...i finally realized, I gave u too much worries...Shudnt have done so...

1 more ting...i ever told u i cant go on on weekdays...And i jst read yr blog now...really am SORRY...i wont do those stuff again...this time, I really seriously promise u...i WONT do it again...so u dont havta worry bout me...i'll study as i promised...

i'm sorry got drunk ytd...really did sth stupid back ther...SORRY my DEAR...

<3 Yong a.k.a Gmogu

our 1st MONTHLY ANNIVERSARY...

called U today...feel HAPPIE hearing yr voice...bt i'm feeling ='{ sad },= now cause clumsy + 4getful me...didnt tell u happie anniversary...i mean it's OUR 1st MONTHLY ANNIVERSARY man...the 1 n only 1st MONTHLY ANNIVERSARY...ther's no more a 1st one...n me,yr hope n everyting...couldnt say it in person to u,b with u 4 our anniversary...how stupid m i?

n u oso said u missed a scholarship so i'm also sad 4 u...bt +u orh...干爸爹 can get other schols oso...don ever give up...

okay lo...l8 le...gtg bed...<3 u...

<3
Yong a.k.a Gmogu

gonna SLEEP soon

gonna sleep soon so using phone to blog... dad outside using n cousin in room using... hse got wifi so I curi curi scan wifi... heheh... notti me...

LYNN i miss u SO MUCHEE... worried u too... u asked me to wake u up 2mr @ 6am bt i dont feel lyk doing so... all i want is for u to get a good rest n not follow my time here,doing wad i'm doing... don owes wake so early bcos of me... mayb i'll wake u @ 9(yr time... not mine)...

dont knoe what happened to mum... keep tellin me to 努力 in my studies whn i told her u're planning to go for doctor... she kept saying things lyk

"lu tek ai tak chek kiang kiang a bo aun chua eh pei de shang lu eh zha bo peng ew?" and

"lu tak chek mai su ee a bo to lok eh pei de shang ee lei?" and

"lu bo tak chek kiang kiang ee si doctor mana eh ai lu?suo yi beh sai su horr ee."

after i heard these words, it worries me... dunno if u'll do such ting... bt i'm sure yr dad wil want u to marry a good guy... so i knt force u...

sleeping soon le... u oso don sleep l8...

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 U...

公蘑菇

WORRIED

i HATE u but <3 U SO MUCH...

u always IGNORE MY ADVICES... u always SKIP MEALS... u always CRY OVER SMALLL STUFF... u always STAY UP @ NIGHTs... u said u just wanted to be with me when i'm awake @ 7 and yr time is 2!!! u shud SLEEP OKAY??? i'm gonna be sad if u fall sick u knoe??? u always STAY UP just cause i'm going to UNI and u feel that u as a "wife" havta wake me up... i'm not PIG like u lah>.<''' u better get mroe rest... i dun wan when go back u bcome more 憔悴... i wan to c a HAPPIE and ENERGETIC LYNN when i get back... so better listen to my words...

oh and i rmb u said sth that u wanna pei me with my life in NZ... by doing what i'm doing lyk SLEEPING, WAKING ME UP(AS A LAOPO), AND STUFF... i dont really want u to do that bcos i dont wanna b dependent on u as i fear umay leave me bh and i'd be dependent on u... and i WORRY for yr HEALTH!!! better dun get sick... or i'm gonna be more WORRIED than ever... so btr listen to me...

today uni very happie lorr... met new friends, new life, everything new... except HATE assignments... haih...

LASTLY,
<3 U always

GUESS WHAT??? I DONT REALLY CARE!!!

dont knoe why when u told me u're gonna go for doctor, i feel very UNSAFE for u... a VERY VERY VERY *WORRYING THOUGHT* came into my mind... WHAT IF... WHAT IF sth BAD happens to u... WHAT IF... WHAT IF u got raped by those ANIMALS!!! or WHATSOEVER... DONT WORRY cause i'm still gonna MARRY U... thats my LIFETIME PROMISE TO U...

suddenly, i REMEMBERED u asking me if u got raped and will i sitll marry u... I THOUGHT... WHY NOT??? u're my laopo now, u're my laopo tmr, and u're gonna be my laopo for the rest for yr life... IDC what u feel... u SAID u'd feel dirty and automatically break up with me... BUT GUESS WHAT??? I DONT REALLY CARE!!! I'D SEARCH FOR U... NO MATTER WHER U ARE HIDING, I'M STILL GONNA FIND U OUT AND MARRY U!!!

FIRST THINGS FIRST!!! if u got raped or WHATSOEVER, i'd BASH that GUY up!!! i dont want anyone and i mean ANYONE to HURT u... i dont want u to feel GUILTY because of SMALL MATTERS... when i HUGGED u the other nite b4 i came BACK(NZ)... i made a promise to myself... and it's gonna be a LIFELONG PROMISE KEPT!!!

不管你走遍天涯海角, 我都一定会找到你... 你总是说我弄你哭蹄，如果我没弄你哭蹄, 我又怎么去安慰你, 爱你呢???
你知道吗? 在我正想离开时, 我好想, 好想的抱着你, 跟你说声再见... 可是不知道为什么, 我却没那么做... 我真是个笨蛋... 希望你别怪我...
我也该在此停笔了...

永(公蘑菇)
永远永远爱着你, 田丽洁你是我的永远!!!

BLOGGING in UNI

LoL... met a new friend who's doing the same course as me and now i'm BLOGGING in the LIBRARY... =.=''' gonna havta wait 2 hrs b4 my next class starts... now i'm just trying to fix that crap LOVE thing so that it goes well...=.=


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THE LAST SIGHT @ U

i looked @ u b4 going back to NZ, as i want to have the last look of yr FACE... i knoe u do wanna PULL onto me NOT LETTTING me GO as u want me to stay behind and u just cant face the SELFISHNESS in yrself... DONT FEEL BAD as i myself wanted to stay behind with u, loving u as much as u loved me, giving u the CARE as u gave me... but i knoe u wanted to let me OUT OF THE CAGE, lemme FLY LIKE A BIRD FLYing free in the SKY HEALED from INJURIES... but when i'm FREE, i'm still gonna MISS the care u took for me... and i didnt wanna be MEAN not looking @ u REMEMBERING the FACE of the SAVIOUR who HEALED my WOUNDS when i got HURT...

reli feel sad when pple talk bout religious things to me... ='{ i do believe in every god that people believes but i dont reli get things down too deep... hope u understand... it doesnt mean i'll stop loving u... i'll NEVER EVER STOP <3ing u... but it means i'll KEEP loving u NO MATTER what problems i FACED...

called u again today, CANT STOP MISSING yr SOUND... really happie to hear yr sound... and hearing u say I LOVE U to me, but i always knoe no MATTER HOW in love we r, ther's still always a barrier in between us... i really do hope that barrier would be like a piece of glass, easily smashed even with my FISTS... or the barrier would be like THIN AIR, which COULD NEVER STOP US loving each other...

it's also quite late and i'll havta get in bed as i'll be needing to wake up early tmr... dont 4get that I ALWAYS LOVE U... no matter how many times i said it, i knoe it wouldnt be enough...

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